Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

The inner city, a bi-product of slavery. Poverty passed down, from generation to generation. Poverty, pushed my father up against the wall, and held a gun to his head. Forcing him to sell drugs, “just to get by”. It wasn’t nothing to be proud of. Pimpin for a Livin. I don’t care how big of a hit, Jay Z’s “Big Pippin” was. No father wants his sons, and daughters, to look up to a father, doing what ever he could, to survive. But I understand, pops.

Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

Daddy wanted to clean his money, and go legit. Buying houses, and businesses. We all wanted, to make that Exodus out of the hood. And join the Jeffersons, in breaking through that glass ceiling. Not knowing that, once we broke through that glass. Their would be, a cement ceiling above that. All we all wanted to do was,  sing that goddam song.

Well, we’re moving on up to the East side
To a deluxe apartment in the sky
Moving on up to the East side
We finally got a piece of the pie
Fish don’t fry in the kitchen
Beans don’t burn on the grill
Took a whole lotta trying
Just to get up that hill


Dear old dad, was a young genius. At the tender age of 13, he made guns. From the scraps, left behind, from “White Flight”. My Grandfather, helped to make the white neighborhoods, of the Bay Area Black. With his G.I. Bill, he bought all kinds of homes. For his family, and friends.  And when those same friends, wanted to move. They would sign, the homes back to him.  How else did you think, black folks got around  “Redlining”.

Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

Back then, black folk, had to know how to play the game. But President Nixon, understood the relationship, between politicians and “Freeholders”.  Nixon understood, that the Constitution, was not written, for women, slaves, nor the proletariat. Nixon knew, that the “Social Contract”, was only a Utopian Idea. The Constitution, was written for white Freeholders. And no 3-Fifths of a man, was gonna be a “Freeholder”. As long as Nixon was President.

Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

“The Nixon campaign in 1968, and the Nixon White House after that, had two enemies: the antiwar left and black people. You understand what I’m saying? We knew we couldn’t make it illegal to be either against the war or black, but by getting the public to associate the hippies with marijuana and blacks with heroin, and then criminalizing both heavily, we could disrupt those communities. We could arrest their leaders, raid their homes, break up their meetings, and vilify them night after night on the evening news. Did we know we were lying about the drugs? Of course we did”.

Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

There is still a “War on Drugs” . A war that makes no sense. Because the opium poppy’s, continue to blow, in the  fields of Afghanistan. Even though the American Military, has been in Afghanistan for 17 years. You see, we lost the real “War on Drugs”. That war, against the Cartels.  I wrote a letter to Barak Obama, while he was still the President. And I asked him.

“How can you give young black youth, 25 years for a few hits of crack. While the heroin trade, increased 300% in Afghanistan? The worlds, heroin distribution hub.  How can you have a Marshall Plan, for Afghanistan. And no Marshall Plan, for the Inner- City? Barak wrote me back, and he told me that, ” Your question, is not a question for the Federal government. It is a question for the  State”. This was after he sent the Feds into EPA, to raid my family”. Asshole!

You see, the reason why we want to “defund the police”. Is because, that money was originally supposed to be used, to fight a war against our real enemy, the Cartels. Not the American people. Originally, the police were complaining, that they were being outgunned by the Cartels. They were being outgunned, because the Cartels, had unlimited funds. So in order to fight a war, against the Cartels. They needed to match the Cartels, gun for gun. They needed,  a military budget.  This is an example, of a military budget.

Discretionary Budget Authority) + OCO + Emergency (Combined)FY2019Military Personnel (No MERHFC)$143,198

Operations and Maintenance$278,803



Revolving and Management Funds$1,656

Defense Bill (No MERHFC)$666,197

Medicare-Eligible Retiree Health Fund Contribution (MERHFC)$7,533

Department of Defense Bill Plus MERHFC$673,730

Military Construction$9,688

Family Housing$1,565

Military Construction Bill$11,253

Total Base + OCO + Emergency (DoD Record)$684,985

Total DoD Mandatory (DoD Record)$8,073DoD Total$693,058


We lost the “War on Drugs”, in Afghanistan. And left a power vacuum, fighting Cartels in Mexico . America, has never learned how to lose. Ever since, they ran out of Vietnam. With their tail, between their legs.  We will never, win the “War on Drugs”. Prevention, has always been the answer. Fighting crime in America,  is symptomatic. As Americans ask themselves, if it is right to “Defund the police”. We must also ask ourselves, if our war, is a moral one.

If we are gonna have a “War on Drugs”. “Should we not have, a Geneva Convention, with treaties, protocols, that establish the standards of international law for humanitarian treatment in war?” To turn a War on the Drug Cartels.  Into a war on the American people?  “A war that will end all wars”.  Are war, that will be the end of America.

Ultimately, if there is a war on the American people. Then we must ask ourselves, the most important question of our time.  And that is, do the American people, have the right to defend themselves? To the defend themselves, against tyranny. But we already know, the answer to that question. From our own history.  The answer to that question, is the meaning of our creed. It is the reason, we put are hand over our hearts. And stand, for the National Anthem.

We only have to remember, what happened the last time. A despotic government, tried to enforce their tyranny, upon a people, from across “The Pond”.

Killer inside, letting it out. I don’t want to, let it out. Killer inside, born from poverty.

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